nevJournal2

Hey let’s cry, I didn’t get enough attention.
My ego is crushed, she didn’t kiss me back, let’s cry. No one understands me, let’s cry. I gave everything to this company, for fucking ten years I have, let’s cry, they just let me go overnight, and he still gets to work there, let’s cry.
Let’s cry for she might have ruined two years of mine, maybe my whole life, let’s cry, and he won’t stop beating me up, no matter how, no matter why, let’s cry. There’s just such injustice, why does God do this to my mother, let’s cry, and they’re all dying for nothing, all of them, their blood dripping from our hands, let’s cry, for we are more guilty than anyone else – and please redeem us (maximum soon, but
minimal sooner), let’s cry.
For no one, not a single one of them wants to be alone, they all – we all, don’t want to be miserably alone, every second that we hear the walls crying to us in their brutal silence that seems to be entwined in every second of our lonely awareness, for not wanting to die alone, let’s cry.
Hey let’s cry about the darkness in your eye, that seems to appear deeper and deeper, in the mirror, let’s cry. But the mirror broke, long time ago, let’s cry, for you’ve been sitting alone here for two hours and nothing happened, and after all, you had quite different expectations from this evening and more than everything, you also foolishly, really did hope she’d understand, understanding that – let’s cry. For wishing to see it happen, rejoice – the next year of your life, rejoyce and cry,
let’s cry.